Saturday, December 15, 2007
herstory
yest nite went herstory...
wondering whther will i tink of u...
yes i did..
not juz once, a few time but is thousand of time tt u appear in my mind....
i bought tt ger along...
hopin to give myself a chance to move on or can i say tt to c whether i can move on anot...
PROVEN...
i cant...
not i dun wan to but i cant...
i felt so surpressed whn am out w her...
image of u keep flashing in my mind...
places we went, moments tt we've shared...
esp in herstory...
i reallie, strong wish tt u were there w me n not her...
she hav to leave early...
after she left, i felt so happy...
loosen up n can b myself...
i miz u alot...
i didnt get myself drunk cos am afraid tt i drink le i wll cal or sms u...
i dun wan tis to happen...
i wana learn to b strong...
stronger in my mentality....
i dance alot...
whn am dancin, i wish u were there to dance w me...
n i noe... having u is having e world...
we might b far apart...
u r bz n so am i...
but my heart is always there...
always beside u...
i so wish tt i can drop everything n juz walk up in front of u n tell u tt i love u...
dun leave me...
but i cant...
i cant b selfish...
u r happy now...
i cant juz go ahead n do watever i like or watever i please...
i hav to put u in e 1st place...
yest am so pissed w her...
i do things is not cos i feel like doin it to her but a muz..
cos she will b angry...
its juz so diff lol..
whn am w u, i do everything oso cos i feel like...
i wana make u happy...
seeing u smile, is e greatest thing tt ever happen to me...
wriiting now, suddenly i hav tis tot...
i long time neva cry le...
ive always hid tt my heart doesnt ache whn u leave...
but in fact my heart is oreadi gone...
e very day tt u choce to leave me...
ive given my heart to u...
yest my ex zouk colleague asked me...
is tt ger my gf... i str8 away say no...
thn i show her ur pic..
told her tt i still miz u n i onli like u...
sumtime i reallie wish tt ican b more daring...
mayb like tt thn u wun leave me le...
i no need everytime drunk le thn dare to tell u or show u tt i care for u n tell u tt i love u...
everytime look at u or look into ur eyes...
my mind goes empty...
my mouth go speechless...
i reallie wish to tell u tt i love u...
but it juz cant come out...
onli tt time thn i und...
y ppl say whn u reallie love tt person thn its hard to say i love u or i like u...
cos am so mesmerise by u tt i reallie lost...
juz now tok to u over at msn...
knowing tt u r fine, am glad...
am still staying ard here...
not cos am waiting for u n wan u to come back to me but cos i wana noe tt u r fine...
rem.. i promise u b4...
i will always b there for u...
yes...
i wish to stay on... to b ur angel...
i reallie feel like sryin...
but no tears come out..
isit bcos as a person grow older, e lesser tears she has or my heartache is oreadi far more thn juz a ache le...
mayb its oreadi shattered into million or billon of pieces le....
i cant mend em up til e extend tt i can feel e pain le...
if one day i was given a chance...
i will stand in front of e whole wide world n shout out loud tt i lve u...
let em noe tt am happy loving u....
Posted by dooblie at 1:49 AM
