Sunday, August 10, 2008
clueless me
recently alot of not gd things happen to me..
i reallie duno wat to do..
am lost...
neva been so lost b4 i guess...
so afraid n lost...
duno who i can open up to..
duno who can help me...
things reallie not gog well for me...
dun wish to tink but cant help tinkin..
ive been losing slp...
tired yet wide awake...
wat sld i do...
sld i go w my wildfulness n open my shop?
or sld i juz find a job n settle down?
i reallie duno...
knowing my mum is so stress up, am even more stress up..
but i cant show it to her...
help me...
wat i sld i do...
where sld i go...
God...
show me a sign....
Posted by dooblie at 9:49 PM
Saturday, August 2, 2008
FIRED
am being fired by my boss...
he says cos my attitude sux..
i tink he juz hate me to core...
i dun mind at all tt he fired me...
but y muz he use such harsh words...
my tears hanging ard my eyes...
i hold strong n didnt cry...
after i walk out, i call chel...
i noe she muz b slpin but i reallie need to tok to her...
she is reallie a great fren...
she wake up upon hearing me cried...
eventhou she onli hav 4 hrs slp, she still acc to uncle charlie...
uncle charlie says forgive n foget...
if not i dun feel gd myself...
yea... i noe its v true...
but how to forgive n forget?
i can bless him...
i can dun hold any anger but am hurt..
by all those words tt he.s use on me...
it keeps floating in my mind...
thn i went to mit aunti n ah jo...
sumtime i reallie tink tt i ask for it...
so many ppl advise me to leave but yet i didnt...
alot of my frenz oreadi says tt he is not a gd boss...
but i juz hope...
tot mayb he will hear me out n wrk things out but i was wrong....
mayb i sldnt even try at all...
now everyone at e coffeeeshop tink tt am e bad guy..
but uncle charlie got say...
watever is rite or wrong is no longer impt....
ya...
no longer impt...
i sld b happy n glad tt nite mares r over...
follow aunti n ah jo to sg flyer...
so damn nice but not practical to take e ride...
after tis incident...
i realize tt i do hav alot ppl who care for me...
in a person life, she will onli hav a true fren...
but for me...
am v lucky...
i hav 3...
one is my beloved aunti...
one is my beloved twinnie...
n chel....
am glad tt i can clear up my tots n b frenz w her...
tis a e best ending...
soojin did ask wat happen, but juz too lazy to tell...
n i hav v supportive family too...
thou i noe my mummy is v hurt whn i cried...
cos in her life, ive neva cry so hard b4...
i noe her heart ache...
but thanx to him...
i will learn n grow...
thank you aunti n ah jo for accompanying me...
thank you chel... thou we dun contact as often but i noe u will always b there for me whnever i need u....
thanx mummy...dun worry so much abt me...
i will take e fall, stand up n walk out of it...
learn...
i love u guys...
mummy... i love u...
Posted by dooblie at 6:07 AM
