Sunday, July 20, 2008
thing dun seems to b rite
things dun seems to b rite...
i duno...
1stly..
i cant seems to find a stall...
2ndly, my god father told me sumthing abt my partner...
which make me tink n wonder more...
3rdly, my fren juz sms me say she cant help me...
so...
now... am left w me, myself n i...
i reallie hope tt i can open my own place soon...
God...
pls help me...
show me a sign...
show me a route...
i reallie duno anymore..
i duno whther sld i stay on my dream or i sld juz forget abt my dream n lead a normal life again...
i seriously tink i sld go c uncle charlie again..
i need some peace..
havent been slping well lately..
hav been tinkin too much abt my own path..
keep having dream...
dreams tt r harmful to me...
i neeed a rest..
hope i can find a stall soon...
Posted by dooblie at 1:35 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
outing w aunti
whn out w aunti yest..
we went to c uncle charlie..
tokin to him , allow me to find peace within myself..
aunti oso impressed of uncle charlie..
thn after tt we go town cos aunti wana go buy wallet..
after awhile she finally found a key pouch tt caught her eyes..
after tt we bought an ice cream n we shared..
cos aunti say she v full...
walk ard at far east, went to find shifu..
told him tt i wana put tt angel tattoo..
thn went upstair to eat again...
so nice lol... e food there....
thn we ahead down, walk ard....
suaying ppl thn went toyr us...
cos aunti said she wana take pic to post on her blog..
took alot stoopid pics..
so funny...
thn went to wait for my mummy to end wrk...
eat w her n her frenz thn she say she neeed to go back to wrk..
so me n aunti head home...
so idiot cos in train got a indian tink he v gd lookin thn trying to seduce ger...
e whole tim ei didnt tink abt her...
its a gd start for me..
like wat uncle charlie says...
bless her..
let her go...
ya...
am doing it now...
its not easy but i did it...
sumtime whn u tot tt e thing is v hard to let go but it turn out to b e easiest to let go...
happier me, brighter future....
anyway tahnx aunti...
great frenz...
Posted by dooblie at 12:23 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
clear minded
through laudrick, i gotta noe uncle charlie...
from uncle charlie i learn alot...
he is like a fortune teller but he is reallie gd..
i feel tt he can almost c me through...
i asked him abt my business, he say its gd n ask me not to worry...
tml am gog to ask him abt love...
i duno wat is he gog to tell me n guide me along..
but fr him i reallie learn alot..
i c myself clearer now..
i noe wat i wan n i noe who i wan...
he made me realize wat am i looking for...
he made me found myself which i tink lost long ago...
true enuf..
les life is not easy route..
but since i chose it...
i will endure n walk it nicely..
ive found e purpose of me of becomin les in e 1st place...
is to b w e one i love n make her happy...
even if it onli last one day...
yes...
it is to njoy every moment n not lookin ofr e perfect one...
no one in tis world is prefect...
after tt day tokin to him, i realize tt i dun love u anymore..
i sld love myself more...
wat he says is true...
whn i fall for a person, i will give everything, e best tt i can ever give...
suddenly tots strike me..
whn he says wat if tt person leave u?
wat if tt person b w u juz bcos u treat her gd...
i realize tt i sld love myself...
no more hurt for myself...
for now...
which ever gers come, i will juz accept w an open heart...
juz do watever tt makes me happy...
do watever i please n like...
u cant accept les, u cant love me...
its ur lost..
not mine...
i will n i can get someone who share my same beliefs too...
one day....
Posted by dooblie at 3:30 AM
