Saturday, November 29, 2008
Missing u GERS....!!!
havent been mittin up w aunti...
seems like long mayb cos i used to mit her most of e time during my off days...
she has been bz w her stuffs...
so is jo...
yq oso bz w her exams...
n penny...
bz flying...
so miz e time whn we juz go out n hav fun...
miz all e crap laughter...
aunti wun b free e whole of next week...
tink we will mit up after i finish wrkin zoukout...
meaning after ur bday..
so sry.. tis yr cant attend ur bday party...
like wat uve said...
wrk is more impt...
i will miss out alot of fun, i noe...
Miz u gers...
hope will n can up w u all soonn....
Posted by dooblie at 11:18 PM
Reallie SICK!!!
hav been feeling reallie sick..
fever, headache, flu, sore throat, body ache n cough..
is like all e sickness juz come to me at a go...
so sick tt i hav been slpin..
mayb i hav been spending so much time n energy on her til i forget to tc of myself...
allenn tok to me yest..
btw where.. its time to intro..
allenn..
he is my gay colleague...
he or i sld say she.. is damn cute n he experince alot in life..
he told me tt he has neva go after anyone in his life b4, eventhou he might reallie like tt person..
reason being, he believe tt whn u go after a person, u cant get true love..
he says tt i sld give up cos all he sees is tt am e onli one who keep giving...
ive neglected so much on myself..
even now, she knew tt am damn sick, it doesnt even bother her...
not even a sms fr her, askin me, am i feelin beta..
mayb cos am sick thn am being negative..
i wish i cld b sick longer..
cos onli in tis way, i will treat myself beta..
allenn is rite in his way...
mayb... mayb i sld stop n tink abt myself...
Posted by dooblie at 3:31 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
duno wats on our minds
sumtime i wld juz feel tt u r so swt..
sumtime i wld juz feel tt u care...
sumtime i wld juz feel tt u like me...
but...
sumtime u r juz so cold...
sumtime am like nth in ur eyes...
sumtime i duno wat am i to u...
sumtime i duno wat's gog on ur mind..
so many sumtime...
i sld juz not tink..
sldnt even expect...
sldnt even rush...
sldnt even tink...
sldnt even fall...
sldnt even follow my heart...
sld hav listen to aunti n jo's advise...
sld hav juz leave...
sld hav juz protect myself...
sld hav leave u alone...
Posted by dooblie at 1:35 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008
tired n restless
ive been so tired n restless recently...
keep wanting to slp..
oso duno wats wrong w me...
am now trying to wrk out my life..
trying to earn as much as i can..
partly cos she motivate me to do so...
partly cos am no longer young to fool ard...
partly cos mummy getting older day by day...
partly cos i wana give her a comfortable life...
recently she is in real bad mood bt lucky for me...
today she found out e reason y she so cranky...
so we tok happily for awhile..
sometime i do find her a little silly...
but its cute..
she is so wrk up by my porfile at facebook cos i put random play..
she is stil tinkin abt it til today...
mayb she is juz so afraid of being hurt again...
so now is back to square one cos of my itchy hand, go put random play..
now hav to gain her trust again...
gog back to focus on my wrk le...
so many things to do, so little time...
Posted by dooblie at 11:58 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
6 AM
its oreadi 6am now n i stil cant slp..
i realized tt ive been smoking more n eating lesser nowaday...
everytime whn i need to tink, i'll wana smoke...
recently ive been tinkin alot..
today ive open tok w her...
everything is clear but i duno y but i cant give up..
mayb cos ive neva met a ger who has been so honest to me...
n wat she has said make sense too...
now is reallie not e time to tink abt love n r/s...
reallie need to tink for career n money...
both of us juz got some much burdens...
thou she told me tt b frenz r beta..
normally i will juz leave..
am surprised..
amazed..
i didnt leave...
am stil staying by her side n shower her w my care n concern..
mayb cos she is honest to me ba..
she explained everything in DETAILS...
actually... i feels tt no need to b in a r/s..
as long as both of us r happy thn can le..
she did tell me tt shes happy whn am ard..
hahahaha... silly her..
juz like a little child...
i guess i will juz stay on...
n not tink so much le...
my biggest prob...
i always tink too much n expect too much...
i sld let go of all these bad habits...
its time for me to let go of e past n embrace my future...
thanx aunti n twinnie...
thanx for not giving me up n stayin by my side...
thanx for being so patience w me n neva once abandon me whn i needed u guys...
tis time round...
ive reallie realize my mistake n am learnin from it...
cos its for my own good...
hehehehe... thanx worz...
i miz u so badly...
a simple smile from u can juz brighten my whole day...
Posted by dooblie at 5:56 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
God is fair
most of e time humans will feel tt God is unfair..
but to me...
i feel tt God is fair...
n i do believe tt wat goes ard, comes ard...
thou i always cant seems to get any gf..
things like always will go wrong...
but i hav a great fren who has always stay by me n b patience w me...
thou alot ppl hav let me go, she has neva once let me go...
whn i hav prob, she will oso b there...
mayb cos after all these yrs, we hav been through alot..
i duno how long more our frenship can last but to me...
i hope we can stay as good til death..
aunti... thanx u..
tis time round, i will reallie tink abt wats wrong, leave e past n move on...
u can do it too...
Posted by dooblie at 12:34 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
heartache
finally noe e ans...
finally everything is over..
i duno wat i did is wrong or rite..
but everything is oreadi settled...
i dun wish to tink le...
my heartache...
wat to do...
hope after crying...
i will feel beta...
no mood in any other thing...
Posted by dooblie at 9:25 PM
weird weird dream weirdo me
recently keep having weird dreams...
dreams tt i sldnt b dreaming...
cos e story of tt dream sld hav ended long ago...
it makes me start to wonder...
yes aunti...
i noe i sldnt tink so much...
went out to drink w yaya n her frenz...
lookin at em, makes me feel old...
allow me to tink n reflect on certain things in my life...
i hope am not being impulsive...
i tink tis time round i reallie noe wat i wan...
am reallie sure wat i sld do..
yes indeed tt i like u n u might hav feeling for me..
but both of us noe tt its juz not e rite time for us yet...
ive always been sure abt love whn i look back at my younger time..
mayb after so long not being att...
i was unsure for awhile...
but now i realize...
e timing is not rite...
juz not rite yet eventhou sometime in e middle of e nite, i wish i wasnt alone...
somehow or rather,deep down inside me..
i believe tt whn e time is rite for me n whn am rdy, God will noe..
n by tt time, e rite one will reallie show up...
i tink i reallie need to focus on some other things rather than love now...
so part of me is still missing u...
Posted by dooblie at 5:40 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
finally they r back
finally aunti n twinnie r back..
hahhaha... actually they back quite long le...
but stil havent got a chance to mit up yet...
too many things to catch up til duno where shall i start fr...
recently someone new is in my life...
so kinda bz...
am lost..
company mayb cutting pay..
mayb lookin for new job again...
its been so long since i last att...
suddenly, i duno how to commit...
i guess humans afterall r funny...
whn u dun hav love, u wish to hav...
whn u hav one, u duno how to handle it..
aunti says tt am weird..
i tink so too..
whn she take e 1st move, i actually shy away..
i duno wat am tinking...
yes... i do admit tt i wish to b in love...
but thn sometime i will feel tt being stable 1st is more impt...
whn i tink of striving a career, i dun wan love..
i do like her of cos..
if not i wld even b nice to her n wish to c her often...
but at times, i juz feel tt e time is not rite..
last time i use to b so sure abt love..
but now...
am juz so unsure..
mayb i sld juz b fren w her...
bu yao hai ren , hai ji...
Posted by dooblie at 9:58 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
mizzing...
mizzing aunti n twinnie...
eventhou its onli been almost 2 days...
so miz em oreadi...
so not used tt they r not ard...
so miz gossiping w em...
went celebrate yest...
gay pub...
e place is like freaking nice n fun...
so wish tt they r ard..
but nvm...
they will b back tml...
so many things to update em til i duno where sld i start...
tink she is not even least bother w me...
am trying so hard not to tink negatively n trying to not b negative...
but i duno...
so miz her too...
miz her voice...
miz her smile...
bt iits oki..
guess whn e time is rite, everything will b rite...
will rem wat aunti tell me..
dun tink so much..
juz relax...
counting down...
aunti n twinnie is coming back le...
duno whether they will get v tanned anot...
heheheh...
lata like black chickens...
hahahaha...
so wish to c n catch up w em...
soon...
i guess it will b soon...
Posted by dooblie at 1:41 AM
