Wednesday, January 30, 2008


general updates


finally got a chance to up date le...
23rd...
am drunk...
drunk as usual....
drunk like fuck...
msged her again..
mornin wake up saw wat ive msged her...
didnt regret at all...
cos i reallie miz her..
drinkin can reallie give me courage..
at least its enuf for me to tell her tt i miz her n reallie love her alot...
as usual, she neva reply...
cos she is sadover her results n tink tt am tokin nonsense again...
24th...
my actual bday...
went to eat CRABS..
so damn nice..
celebrated w aunti n ah jo...
went KTV..
sing for 5 hrs...
5 long hrs...
sing til no voice...
all become man after tt....
25th...
went back to wrk...
slog my usual life again...
yest...
i tok to her...
knowing tt she is hurted...
it hurt me too...
i can feel e pain inside her...
e grief tt she is grieving abt...
my heart so ache n so pain...
i wish tt theres something i can do to ease her pain...
take all her misery away...
so...
e least i can do is to joke w her...
try to make her smile...
acc her to slp over e fone n sing for her...
i duno whther will she feel beta anot but at least i noe, ive try my best...
if God reallie love us...
i wish i can take all her pain n unhappiness...
i wish she will mit her mr rite...
at least someone who will treasure n cherish her...
eventhou i can feel tt she dun like me anymore...
i will still love her n stay by her side...
she went to play mahjong...
hope at least she will feel beta...
gog to slp le...
so tired...

Posted by dooblie at 3:24 AM

Monday, January 21, 2008


wondering


my bday comin soon...
am wondering sld i tell u tt i reallie wish tt u will b there...
tot u celebrated w me on thurs le...
but i reallie wish to cya on my actual day...
but i duno whether sld i give u a msg n tel u tt i reallie wish to cya...
cos am afraid..
afraid tt eventhou i tell u tt i wish tt u will b there but u oso neva show up///
mayb wait til wed thn c how ba...
i miz u...
miz everything abt u...

Posted by dooblie at 1:48 AM

Sunday, January 20, 2008


unforgetable 170108


am so happy on tt day...
cos mit up w u..
neva expect tt e mittin will end so late...
am glad tt we mit up n hav njoy ourselves...
i duno whether r u did u njoy our outing but i reallie do...
am amazed of myself...
u r e 1st ger who made so much changes in my life...
e 1st ger tt i wana lose wt for...
e 1st ger tt i actually go learn how to make e blog nicely...
after tt day, i miz u even more...
after tokin to u, i went to sort out my tots...
i decided to b fair to tt ger n b happy myself..
so i told her e truth...
e truth tt i hav sumone in my heart n i cant like her...
today u msged me...
told me tt u r bored at e bday party...
i reallie hope tt u wld say tt u wana mit me...
but no matter wat...
am stil glad tt i can acc u to tok over e fone awhile to kill ur boredom...
lookin at ur pics n e videos tt u record for me..
make me so happy...
i decided to wait for u...
but i will not hope or expect tt anything will happen between us...
cos after tt outing i realize something...
is tt...
juz to stay by ur side, am happy enuf...
juz to b there for u, am satify enuf...
cos like tt i noe tt i can always try to make u happy...
no matter whn or where...
i will b there for u....
u said tt i onli will love a ger whn i cant get tt ger...
actually u r wrong...
i love u, not cos i cant get u...
is all juz bcos its u...
every single little thing fr u, juz captivate my heart...
like tt day...
we hav e same ringtone, i feel tt we link to each other....
whn u hold my arm cos its rainin n u scare to fall down..
i feel tt its heaven who give me a chance...
n u noe wat...
my heart actually stop beatiing at e very moment u hold my arm..
all e way to hmv...
i noe tt n i can feel tt theres a link in us...
a kind of connection tt i cant describe to u...
like i noe whn u r reallie happy n whn u r faking it...
am sure if one day u were to b touched by me, i will not let u go...
i will treasure u w all my life n give u e best tt i can give...
cos its U tt i love...
e real u inside urself...
i will wan u to b urself n not to b sumone others wan u to b...
i love u...

Posted by dooblie at 4:15 AM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008


am JERK


sumtime i reallie feel tt am a jerk...
asshole...
mayb in ur eyes, am a damn good person...
but i reallie dun tink so...
its cos i love u...
tts y i can take watever u give me...
i treat tt ger like shits....
am always angry w her n always scold her...
my temper is like shits...
dun reallie und...
y i neva once get angry w u...
but for her...
am juz a bad tempered person...
mayb i sldnt juz b att...
i sld juz take everything slowly...
until i found a ger tt i like again...
if not i reallie feels bad...
thurs mittin u le...
i duno will u last min say cant make it anot but i still hope to cya..
i shall juz c how ba...

Posted by dooblie at 12:26 AM

Sunday, January 13, 2008


hahaha


tell u sumthing...
i reallie give angel up le...
finally i realize tt ive returned enuf to her le...
after tokin to aunti reallie made me und alot alot...
tis time round no more tinkin tt i wana leave but in e end go back to her le..
cos i hav told her directly tt am leaving...
ive decided to give up n move on fr her life...
hahahha...
so happy u noe...
tt kinda feeling...
so lighten up....
so carefree now...
reallie lah..
i told aunti tt she is my supporting pillar...
sumtime w/o her, i reallie feel lost..
duno wat to do man...
n after tokin to her reallie made me tink n go focus on wat i wan...
no more living my life for others...
i live my life for me myself...
letting u go is e same too...
u r att now...
nth much i can do...
so i will juz put u deep in my heart...
slowly lol...
cos i believe tt if we hav fate, we will mit again...
n am v sure e next time we mit...
it will b e rite time for e both of us...
cos ive leant to move on n b strong on my own...
sum cafe cal me today..
ask me to go down for interview..
i tink i will try...
hopefully i can get it...
pray hard ba...
hehhehe...

Posted by dooblie at 1:34 AM

Thursday, January 10, 2008


my comin bday


my bday comin le...
yest nite u msn me n u rem my bday...
am v happy...
i tot u wanted to go w onli e 2 of us...
but i was wrong...
i tok to aunti today...
she is rite...
i love u....
ive oreadi forget abt angel...
n towards angel, its more of b guilty tt last time i cheat on her n wana repay her...
but for u...
is tt i reallie hav fallen for u...
so deep tt i dun even noe y or whn...
ive v mixed feelin...
i wish to cya...
but i oso dun wish to cya...
am afraid tt i will b sad after seeing u...
but i reallie miz u alot tt i wana cya...
aunti is rite...
i sld move on...
i sld put u deep down in my heart n move on w my life...
i duno how but i guess i will try...
i noe i hav been tryin n til now i stil havent forget u...
mayb its reallie time for me to put u deep down inside my heart n move on le...
i will neva forget abt "us"...
taek care..

Posted by dooblie at 12:00 AM

Thursday, January 3, 2008


a new yr


its a new yr le...
guess wat i did on new yr eve n new yr...
hahhaha....
am rotting at home....
had so much rest...
duno y but juz feel tt u r not feelin v gd...
mayb u r under some stress...
mayb u dun wish to open up to me...
or mayb i tink too much le...
my cousin called...
i might b gog down for interview soon...
so excited yet scare...
i reallie hope tt i can get a office job...
fr there i will learn n settle down...
my boss not reallie happy today whn he knew tt both of us might b leavin soon...
he told my colleague tt he dun wish us to leave...
i duno...
am lost...
sometime wrkin there reallie v happy...
but i noe i hav to change my environment la...
duno y u sound so down...
wondering wats e cause...
like everytime whn i tok to u or msn u...
u dun seems to b happy...
mayb i realie tink too much ba...
but i reallie hope tt i can still b ur dooblie...
whn u hav probs or feelin down, u will stil wana share w me...
cos i will b there....
ive learnt to b alone le...
learning not to tink so much...
hope one day...
one day u will reallie come find me ba...
am not feelin gd...
i duno y...

Posted by dooblie at 1:14 AM