Sunday, May 17, 2009
is it just me
isit just me or everybody is the same?
everytime late at nite, w/o fail i will tink of u...
thinkin of u, i will lit up a cig...
and everytime i will tell myself tht after smokin tis cig, i will stop tinkin of u..
but i just cant stop smokin likewise, i cant stop tinkin of u...
i guess and i reallie hope tht u have a gd life now...
i hate myself...
why everytime whn am drunk, i will sms u..
it makes me seems tht am so weak and shallow...
but its oki anyway... guess my sms doesnt affect u and i will never cya again...
i wish to put our story to an end but i cant seems to do so...
i always believe tht its not the length of time tht we have been tgt..
its the amt of love and efforts tht ive put inside...
yes... indeed u have hurt me alot but i have never once hate u...
i wish i could turn back time..
am not greedy...
i just need 1 day...
1 day to hao hao ai ni and i will leave...
thts a dream...
a dream tht will never come true...
i should go slp and stop all my nonsense...
=)
Posted by dooblie at 12:48 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
wow its may
its may... saw my last blog... its feb..
march and april i didnt blog, doesnt imply tht i dun tink of u...
i dun feel the pain and i dun miss u..
i do...
but sometime just feels sick and tired of blogging abt my sadness...
reading my past blog, its all abt sadness...
mayb here is the only place where i can show my real sadness and need not put up a strong front and fake laughter...
think u went back to yr husband...
think most prob its bcos of yr daughter...
watever it is, i only wish tht u will be happy..
i start to wonder wat i wan in life and what life has instore for me..
i duno...
my damn poker got hacked...
50 mil gone..
was so pissed...
but so wat..
in the end, its just a game rel...
its just chips..
why bother and let it affect u so much..
enjoy life is what i wan now...
drink on fri, fri will be happy event...
i hope i wont sms u again after am drunk..
its just so hard, forcing myself not to sms u..
only whn am drunk, i dare to sms u..
only whn am drunk, i dare to show the real me...
i wish to shout to the whole wide world tht i miss u...
but i know jo and aunti will scold me...
so i also dun dare to tell them much abt how much i miss u..
went drinking at jb with my boss...
theres a girl who keep comin to me and try to get close to me...
i didnt touch her at all...
cos i dun feel like flirting and playin at all..
at tht very moment of time, i only think abt u...
was thinkin ni zha zhe li jiu hao le...
its not that i dun wana play..
not that i dun wana flirt..
but i just got no mood at all...
mayb cos heart is died ba..
dun feel anymore...
whn am happy, i ask myself , am i truely happy..
whn am sad, i ask myself, how sad can i be...
whn i love, i ask myself, how deep can i fall...
i realize, i ve got no ans at all...
all i ask for is a girl who can like me and i love her so tht i can shower her with my love, care and concern...
zhen de you na mo nan ma??
Posted by dooblie at 9:12 PM
